i used to marvel how role playing games work. I loved Chrono Cross, Valkyrie Profile, Suikoden II and the whole FF Saga. In a role playing game, it’s easy to find allies; there’s a sense of attainable goal in each mission; and you know for a fact that one day, when you train really hard, you will be strong enough to beat the big boss. But what I like most about RPGs is you can’t really commit mistakes. You just push the reset button and come back to a particular save point.
I’m way beyond my RPG days. I’ve outgrown it and I don’t really have the luxury of time to commit to one. I’m living in a world with no fucking save points and there are no allies that can be easily recruited. To tell you frankly, my life is not going anywhere. I don’t have a particular mission to save a princess. There are no dragons to slay here. I’m living in a glitch of a system known as the real world.
Some of the people I met in high school and college are doing really good with their lives. Some have traveled the world, bought lifelong investments and some already started a family. I know I should focus more on the positive side but I can’t help but feel… y’know, left out. I’m foaming at the mouth with envy (though I’m not really keen on starting a family lol) with all their achievements. A classmate just gave a motivational talk in his previous school; I’m stuck here in this futile mission to earn a prefix in my name.
The only thing to salvage my life is to purchase vamd 02 mini dreadnought
. Oh well.
“I knew that I had come face to face with someone whose mere personality was so fascinating that, if I allowed it to do so, it would absorb my whole nature, my whole soul, my very art itself.”
- Oscar Wilde, The Picture of Dorian Gray